November 16, 2012

Blah Blah Blah

I am really not feeling much of anything as of late. Or I should clarify that. I am not really digging my full time gig. Period. I won't bore any one with the details but it ain't all kosher.

And I am on my second week with a massive sinus infection/chest congestion = feeling like shit. Eating wise, bravo on all accounts. Basically a lot of soups and dips. And a few protein fruit smoothies thrown in. For some crazy reason my body is finally reacting properly and I'm shedding more pounds too. I can only tell with clothes I am trying on.

One of my favorite pull on pants ... nice soft material with a drawstring waist. They are grey with great pockets. That one was amazingly oversized on my body. In fact it was so oversized that I could literally pull them up to my boobs and they were still ginormous on me.

Unfortunately, I wore these pants like for the past 4 years every winter. And I loved them. I always thought I look sooooooooooo good in them. But now that I'm a lot smaller and me looking in the mirror with them on ... my only sad sad thought was, "How could I have allowed myself to get that large and not even care."

I am happy to say I know I will never be that way again. But I still feel like shit and coughing up a lung.

PS: I am sporting a sweatshirt from my alma mater that I last wore in 2001.

November 14, 2012

10 Months Later....

So a lot has taken place since my last post in January. A lot.

My 8-year quest of being BANDED finally happened on June 27, 2012!!! While it will be nice to shed some pounds, my number one goal is to get HEALTHY … And to get off ALL my
diabetic meds and not have to rely on my CPAP at night and for naps.

For the past five months I had a blog detailing my lap band journey. Then I decided to not blog about it anymore. Too many coworkers and too many snoops were reading it ... and for the snoops... they were haters of mine in and around where I live.

I remembered I had this blog so I dug it back up like an old skeleton. I missed writing as I wished. Writing freely without being judged like I felt I was on my lap band blog.

So ... welcome back to my life as I know it.

January 3, 2012

i am alive in 2012

Well happy belated new year to you and my one follower. My holidays were pretty dim. I worked all of Christmas and that really sucked ass. And even though I gave everyone a list of six items, not one of them got bought. Why bother with lists then I ask?!

I lost my only address book amidst my mess so I randomly picked people out of the phone book (that I knew) and sent them my annual Yuletide Greetings. I wasn't impressed with the outcome of what I received though. It all seemed so forced. Like I sent you something and in return I got one back. It's not supposed to be like that.

So my upstairs neighbors are moving at the end of this month. Just across the street and a little bit over. Close enough but not really. I adore their year old daughter... she turns 2 in July. I work with her mom but her dad... yikes. I got full wind of his mental/verbal/emotional abuse just a few weeks ago. Reminded me of ME and my awful past some 22 years ago with my very own psycho.

Last night the little two foot girlie girl knocked at my door. What a sweet surprise that was! And I will truly truly miss that little face. Yeah sure I'll see her every so often but not like I have this past 365 days.

Eh life goes on.
Happy 2012.